For nothing is hidden, except to be revealed; nor has anything been secret, but that it would come to light.
Art Lovers Insights:
A lot of bad things have happened in my life. Life has not been easy. We can choose to stay in the dark and hide from the truth. Or, I can choose to accept that I also had a role to play in the drama of my life.
Sometimes we are ashamed at what others has done to us. We take the responsibility on ourselves and start hating and blaming ourselves. We get scared that people will despise us. For many years I thought I was “damaged goods”. The shame of what happened was mine alone.
But, that is not true! True strength lies in accepting my responsibility in being truthful, honest and vulnerable. Truth is seeking for the light, searching for the glimpse on the water. The truth is that darkness does not overcome light, but light shines brightest when it is dark.
The coffee in my cup has gone cold, but the heat emanating from my hands is enough to trick my mind into thinking that it’s still hot enough to drink. It’s the sheer intensity of the story that causes my palms to feel hot and sweaty. Leonie continues at a pace that leaves me no time to come to terms with her thinking that she was to blame for the death of her stillborn.
“I managed to make matric, I managed to get away from this guy, finally. But even through Varsity (University), it was the same pattern,” Leonie puts her cup down. “Psychologically, your brain is amazing. You just shut down. I just decided that this didn’t happen to me. But your soul, your spirit. It’s all there. It’s like a big storm inside of you. So I did really well at Art in Varsity, but nobody knew what to do with me, because I was unteachable. I didn’t trust anybody. I mean how? Especially me. How do you trust a man?” I nod in agreement, hoping that it comes across in an empathetic way, rather than sympathetic – not in my entire lifetime could I ever feel what she felt…read more